#GRLPWR, Femininity, Singledom, and Ego (NYFW FW18 2018) – New York Fashion Week

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Photographer Kensey Jean by Silvia @SillyGraphy_ – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
Why am I single? This is a question that I continuously ask myself. If it were up to me I’d have been married, or engaged, or at least in a meaningful relationship by now. I’m thankful that isn’t the case though. Only at the ripe age of “now” am I starting to understand that I have a greater life mission and purpose to fulfill. If I would have married, held an engagement, or dated someone(just about anyone), I would have been lost into society’s constructs and Karma that I’m so trying to “break free” and “deprogram” from. These programs would have been regurgitated by my spouse, boyfriend, SO leading us to divorce before I even had the chance to become or know the person I am today. Thank god my parents never instilled that marriage programming onto me that is so very prevalent in today’s world and across cultures; the kind in which parents want their children to marry by a certain age or have kids by such and such time, or just so they (the parents) don’t need to bear the “shame” of their child being “single and unwanted” or just down right “ugly” for society. My parent’s never controlled my love life or my perceptions of love all too much except for the age gap relationships I was in (but my parents themselves have a gap too. So with that said, that advice didn’t last long. I was also secretive about my relationships so I never had much of an influence by my peers or parents.) To start off, my parent’s have their own love Karma “programming” to overcome. I never truly had a prime example of a happy marriage and couple in my own personal life growing up. The programming I’ve been instilled with by my parents were that of, “if you do this for me then ill love you. If I just lose a little more weight then i’ll be seen as beautiful. If I do the chores then that equals my self worth.” And on and on with a construed sense of self. I’ve come a long way to overcome such limiting beliefs and thought patterns emplaced upon me by my parents. But these patterns are passed on through the generations just like addictions are. And so there is family karma at play that many souls are raised into. In the way of love – and life – my parent’s haven’t taught me much of anything LOL. Now I realize that that isn’t such a bad thing. Painful for the majority of my life, but It has led me to think more for myself and learn anew without prior preconceptions.

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Photographer Kensey Jean by Silvia @SillyGraphy_ – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
I never said I was perfect. But I’ve come to the realization that I never had to be perfect in the first place. If I’m overweight and it fluctuates.. well that’s who I am and it’s okay. I AM BEAUTIFUL. I don’t need anyone to date me who can’t accept that part of myself that I have come to accept and that I show love towards. That type of inflicted remark still occurs believe it or not. Regardless how much I have accepted myself – many others have not. If I don’t have the money right now, well why would I want to fancy a guy who cares that much about my finances, job title, or what I can provide monetarily to a relationship? There is validity in these questions, but some of them are very ego based programming and we must ponder the intention of why this issue might be pushed by the other party. I’m not looking for a perfect man, only one that is perfect for me with problems I can handle. Perfection is overrated anyway and society places so many rules on souls today to conform to be such a way. These thoughts above aren’t our own; they have been conditioned onto us in some sort of way and retained though-out our lives here on Earth. As such, creating a never ending cycle that has yet to escape us. We have been teaching our children to relive the past even though now is the present.

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Photographer Kensey Jean by Silvia @SillyGraphy_– www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
Men in particular. It is sad that we raise our sons to grow up “manly” and wear and do boyish things. We have disassociated emotions and femininity away from young boys and men. The most manly thing I can think of is a man who will cry and be vulnerable about their feelings; to connect to the feminine within themselves. To see my father hiding his past, sadness, and disappointments(and reliving these experiences decades later again and again) just shows me the reality of how deep and harmful that sort of gender, cultural, socioeconomic, religious, and all other programming can be. It is said that men never truly “get over” something or someone like the way women are said to cope. My guess is because many boys have been taught to cut off that side of themselves and don’t know how to overcome and accept their feelings when some drastic experience happens. It is not for me to judge. I have past life experiences to work through that I’ve carried into this lifetime with me.

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Photographer Kensey Jean by Silvia @SillyGraphy_– www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
I had to write this post over because I never wanted to focus just on#GRLPWR even though my outfit speaks #FEMININE. To me that is a label and I don’t like labels all too much because that tries to box one’s infinite soul up into a limiting word, idea, thought. Being spiritually minded, we are all one and the same with both masculine and feminine energies residing within us. I never got lost into all of the gender and race issues and movements out there that tend to separate us rather than bring us together. I saw a post the other day on Instagram by someone I follow who is “nesting” for her baby girl’s arrival. The whole nursery was pink and all the clothes were stereotypical “girl” clothes along the range of black, white, pink, red, and of dresses mostly. This just screams programming. Souls are born into this world but are conditioned from the moment they are born. That’s probably one of the first programs placed upon us; “blue” or “pink”? Girl’s toys or boy’s toys? Anger started to arise from within me. Why do I feel angry? I see what that sort of conditioning can do and how limiting a scope it places onto a soul. In a sense it takes away our power when others tell us who to be and how to act and how to think before, we as souls, had the chance to decide for ourselves in this physical reality. But this is socially acceptable in our society and unknowingly we continue to follow these restraints that bind us and divide us. We aren’t just a gender. But I think that’s also where my singledom comes from. I don’t wish to conform to societies stereotypical views towards “women” and “men” that continue to linger on between the ages and between the shared words with the bros and the gals over the hogwash conversations of cheaters, liars, and gold diggers. I’m not saying their isn’t truth in the pain. There is truth in these experiences, and it is true to whoever believes in these conditioned programs. If I were to think I’m a male who was born female, well that would be true for me. It might not be the truth for someone else. I just choose to step back and see the greater picture of it all and how little all of this even matters. Sometimes I too am subjected to this way of thinking by others. And unfortunately I too experience sexism and such. These experiences have been true for me, but I don’t approve of it. Just as I don’t approve of men who have lots of programming they must first overcome before coming into a relationship with me. It is not my work to accept someone’s pain and entire life programming as I climb my way out of the trenches of this matrix. When my cat died I was going to give a piece of my soul essence or time here for my cat to live on. But I was reminded that what is mine is mine, and some things we can’t sacrifice of ourselves for others. I can not give my power away for some other soul to live on. We must accept that we can’t save everyone.

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Photographer Kensey Jean by Silvia @SillyGraphy_ – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
I feel as complete as I am and can be. I have my flaws and I know of that, some I’m somewhat ashamed of.. but I still try to love those pieces of myself. To see these sorts of societal programs regurgitated in the men I’ve been meeting strongly deter me. I have a very specific man in mind that I’m waiting to meet. Someone on my frequency that shares the same life mission as I do; someone looking for change on a world level. I used to be stuck in the programming of, “you are what you attract” with those fans ofThe Secret and The Law of Attraction. In some cases this is true. Some days when I feel a little low energetically, I notice I do attract people who are much lower in frequency. But to say that this is a fact is certainly not true. Residing on Earth is a teaching ground. We are all learning and teaching. It seems these past few years have many been me teaching other people and me seeking my own way out of this dense conditioning found in schools, governments, parents, fashion, beauty, religion, etc. I could just see the programs someone had to overcome and I was there to shine a light on those beliefs and break them open. Whether or not those people wanted to take a look is not my concern. Of course it works both ways, I am no exception. But that’s what I think really is going on; it just shows me how conditioned society is to believe, act, and do certain things based on what has been programmed as acceptable through the ages.

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Heartfelt message from my dear sister – Kensey Jean
Being Spiritually Awake and conscious is a much more difficult thing to be in a world of asleep, conditioned, people. To meet people time and time again who will never understand your depth and are only stuck on the superficial level of primal desires and appearances is just bound to happen. To be called beautiful or cute or sexy by a man who is unfamiliar as a way to start a conversation with me without wanting to know my depth, is a bit offensive. Sometimes I admire(accept) the flattery if it’s sincerely heartfelt, but I’m not just any “baby, babe, sexy” woman. It feels degrading to a soul that has self realized itself. But I don’t take it to heart like I used to. I can’t. That is their truth; their programming is true to them. However, to classify all individuals as a certain way is a sad day. I know it, I’ve seen it, I’ve experienced it and it prevails on. I can tell you that I’m one of the most honest, transparent, committed people there are. Law of Attraction, In those cases of programming where people are taught to subject all people as the same, well there is a strong chance that these peoples beliefs will be reaffirmed many times overs by experiencing the liars, cheaters, mentality, the so called “like attracts like.” It is till we open our eyes and learn how to distinguish people, will we be able to break the cycle of continual thought – potentially attracting us to much different individuals. Unfortunately, this world teaches us to be superficial and ignore our inner truths and souls. In addition to being spiritually awake, to know yourself shrinks the dating pool even more with less potential mates to consider. And then there leaves me, single.

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The loneliest thing is to date someone who is not right for you. Being Claircognizant and having Claircognizance – psychic thoughts and knowing – (We are all psychics and intuitives by the way, we just have been programmed to forget our innate gifts.) These intuitive thoughts would always bombard me sometimes to the point of harassment of needing to leave a relationship for my highest good. I don’t always know exactly why, now I usually just wait it out because lessons are at play, but I find out the reason out later. It usually just ends abruptly as spirit intervenes; I get very attached to people and not wanting to end things. I am one of those souls who would do “till death do us part.” These intuitive nudges and messages are always there to protect me though or to tell me I don’t need to learn anything else from that person.

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As you can see, even though I am intuitive and spiritually focused, I too have amnesia. The purpose of being here is not to know all the answers and to learn. To have some detachment from source, god, universe, what have you so that we can learn. I don’t know when or exactly how he will look, but he will manifest his way into my life. I have a grander plan for my life and need someone who matches with that vision, who understands and lives the way of my life, who also is intuitive and seeking a spiritual life, and who has devoted his life to overcoming such programming that I have been actively digging myself out of.

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I am single, not because I’m unlovable. I have many suitors – that just aren’t right for me and I know so. It would be a disservice for me to get into a relationship with these people. To know that the relationship is never to be destined and pretend like it is for that other person, is not something I wish to do or make believe. I choose to live a life of singledom till I meet this sort of man that matches up with me. Who treats me as a goddess, loves my flaws as I do, who seeks to enlighten the world alongside me, and who has a masterplan for their life. And maybe perhaps, where I’m not harassed with messages from spirit about the relationship ending. It’s remarkable how the more I turn down men, the more I am admired and have a stronger sense of value. I already know my value though. I know my sense of self and what I’m seeking.

 

I don’t need to know all the answers to life, I just need to follow where my soul guides me. This is me on #GRLPWR#Femininity, and #Singledom.

Smooth sailing AwakenedTravelers!

Kens
http://kenseyjean.com/
@kenseyjean or @thekenseyjean

Props to Silvia for the photos of me. Edited by myself always.

SHIPP’S STARS. The Year of Broke. (NYFW FW18 2018) – New York Fashion Week

 #SuzyKassem #ComingForthIntoTheLight

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Shipp’s Stars – Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18

SHIPP’S STARS.

A pre-owned hat that spoke to me.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18 – Forgive my wrinkled skirt.. the outfit was rushed together in 10min haha!
I have many dreams for myself as I flow along this current we call “life” towards our “death.” In actuality the two are reversed. Most of my dreams are unrealized. To say I know where I’m going is a complete overstatement.

It’s been a few years now and I still cant answer, “What is my purpose for humanity?” and “What contribution would I like to make to the world at large?” My why seemed to never exist. Even on the important matters of life such as wealth. Wealth is something we desire, which I never had a strong why till now. Sometimes we must see the stark contrast of lack of abundance to understand our motivation and reason for desiring wealth. I would like to live a financially free life where I can pay others to help me reach my life mission. I wish to pay them and be ethical about it. I wish to travel and do the things I love without the worry of how I am to pay for such a thing. I can’t count how many times I’ve been stepped on and how many times public figures rise to the top in history by the bloodshed of others. I wish to win success ethically. The crux of the issue was that my visions were never strong enough to achieve any strong sense of fulfillment. If I got close, the high seas would continuously knock me sideways when financial and unexpected storms kept arising having me to lay by shore or forcing myself to weather the storm and feel somewhat defeated anyway. Which led me to my next question, “Is this (photography, art, fashion) really what I’m meant to be doing?” Bits and pieces of a vision showed up for me, sure, but I still am floating down the river of “life” with no sense of exact purpose and direction.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
My ego continues to shatter as I break free from societies limitations and programming. What started as a road to success in fashion photography was not just about fashion. There are days where I don’t want to just be a fashion icon. I don’t want the publicity or the gratitude social media inflicts on me. I don’t want to post my day or my life all the time because I dont want or need the attention. Being quite honest, it makes me uncomfortable. My life is a whole contradiction. On one hand I don’t wear makeup and live a life of hermitude devoted to my inner world and spirituality. On the other hand, I express my inner world externally with my fashion, modeling, and with the art I create. I share my life experiences with utter transparency because that’s the character I wish to have. I desire to share my work and mission with the world. And I like to give thanks and sometimes receive positive feedback because It shows I am touching a soul on some sort of level. I don’t want to photograph things that have an egotistical intention that scream, “BUY THIS!” That is not the world I wish to contribute towards. Like I said, my life is a paradox.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
My fashion dresses my soul and is an expression of my soul itself. Is it possible to have a good fashion sense yet be ego-less? Is it possible to do sales without influencing others for your own egotistical benefit?? I think the answer is yes, but the next question is, “HOW?” I plan to sell my work for the greater good but not push it on people. I wish to live a life not needing to depend on others for money, but rather receive money that is truly earned by those who believe in me and the mission I follow. I would like to create a spiritual movement that awakens the soul within. Our society has deadened our soul to oblivion. I want to ignite the focus inward. I’m not the only one to be on this journey, but I feel my mission is to help awaken others in some sort of capacity – not force them but help them awaken themselves in their own time to the greater picture of life. And for me to be given the gift of fashion, art, spirituality, and philosophy.. a kind of paradoxical mission is stirred within me that I somehow am asked to follow. I don’t question it too much, but I ponder it from time to time, “perhaps the only way to disrupt an industry is to be a part of it.” Just as souls have lost their way here through the many systems we have in place (schools, religions, culture, etc), some intuitively guided souls make it through to lead the way and remind the majority of their spiritual nature. They have taken it upon themselves to stand in a crowd of asleep individuals for the universal good of the majority.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
I am not the clothes I wear, or the objects I own. I considered styling outfits for others or for editorials, but I feel I would be limited and only contribute to someone’s ego and feed their hidden dark side. You know, the dark side of people who fall in the trap of wanting to “look the best” “be the most envied” in the room. Sometimes my ego becomes inflated and these dark thoughts appear; once again reminding me how humanity often struggles with balancing the ego in themselves. Having an ego is important but knowing how to balance the dark with the light is much more so. We must have a little ego to fulfill our life’s mission but be ruled by the heart and soul.

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Thrifted clothes during the 50% off sale. Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
I’ve taken up the challenge to invest all my money and limit my expenses for buying new clothes and such. I have committed myself to the#TheBrokeLifestyle. For my own styling ventures, i have turned primarily towards thrifted clothes during the big 50% off sales and such. It is a very humbling experience and one that truly deflates the ego. It has become an expression of what can be on a small budget. Anyone is able to thrift and has just as much chance as everyone else to find wonderful clothes. The clothes that are meant for me won’t pass me by. I’ll always have the money and means to fund this kind of lifestyle. It also does a world of good for the environment and for the soul. Considering this world is full of corruption and the way clothing makers are under-payed and mistreated, to artists whose designs are stolen, thrifting truly limits funding into that sort of evil. This is me “Paying Myself First.” And me “Paying the World” for an agenda of good rather than evil. So yes, the idea of thrifting stirs my enthusiasm in so so many ways. It probably has it’s own faults but I believe it is better than the alternative. I’ll still buy new things that are unique and which bring me happiness as always, but I feel glad to create a more sustainable, ethical future and save lots of money in the process by thrifting.

I may not have a crystal clear understanding of my purpose, but what I do know is that my purpose is bigger than I have could ever imagine. I have a basic foundation of WHO I AM (click to read!) and what I stand for; that’s all I need to know right now.

Smooth sailing AwakenedTravelers!

Kens
http://kenseyjean.com/
@kenseyjean or @thekenseyjean

Props to Viridiana and Yohee1109 for the photos of me. Edited by myself always.

State of Surrender (NYFW FW18 2018) – New York Fashion Week

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18

“By letting go it all gets done” Lao Tzu

 

Life leads us to surrender sometimes. I think not many people understand the term, “surrender.” Surrender to some might mean “to give up”, but it also means “let go and allow.” As I have walked my path, I have started to feel disappointment and unsurety of where I’m supposed to go next. What was in the past has been true, but since my 24th birthday back in September I have been feeling unsure of where to go next and what I’m meant to be doing. The thing with PURPOSE, is that it’s always being redefined.

The more time that has gone by, the more unsure I got and the more painful it became to stay the same and encounter the same disappointments. Like a butterfly trying to leave it’s cocoon but stuck in the same old shell.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
The part of being human is that we have worries. Eventually we have worries. I’ve been worrying about my future, how my mother plans to move away, how my finances will be, how I want to live my life and who I want to spend it with, how I want to be purposeful, wanting to reach the level of success I envision for myself, and how i’m on borrowed time to achieve what I set out to do but yet still limited by my finances. And yet perhaps its my psyche, but I always have felt like needing to “catch up” in life. I was held back in Kindergarten due to my learning disabilities. Perhaps that’s where this mindset began. I didn’t want to waste time, or be left behind compared to my peers, or left behind on my own vision. But yet the “older I’ve become” and the more I continue to “fight” my way to my dreams.. I still encountered disappointment. Disappointment with magazines breaking ties, disappointment that my photos that I spend so much time and money to travel are not credited properly, disappointment where models cancel on me, or other creatives don’t see my vision. If they see my vision, many of them are “across the pond” shall I say. They are in a different world; different ecosystem.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
Originally this was going to be time to rest and rejuvenate before I attended NYFW and Grant Cardone’s 10XGrowthCon (which I had to cancel), but instead I was led to surrender all of my worries and dreams. To take time for me and explore my own spirituality. Call it a reattunement if you will.

Before I “officially” decided to go down my Photography path, I was out in California connecting deeply to my spirituality in solitude. Spirituality is important to me and at the time I wanted it to be a part of my life. But as I came back to NY, somewhat disappointed, somewhat thrilled to be home with family again, I decided to follow Photography and fashion. It was a vision I had years prior in my teens but people aren’t conditioned to follow their dreams in this society and instead are bombarded with other “loftier goals” like which job will provide a decent amount of security.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
Anyway, I think spirituality and fashion are somewhat antithesis’ of each other. Fashion is often tied to Consumerism and Ego, yet spirituality is often associated with letting go of the Ego and consume less. During those almost 3 years I focused more on fashion and disregarded my spirituality; it’s just something that’s not typically seen together. During my 2 months of surrender, I became more attached to my spirituality, wanting it to be more than something on the sidelines. Perhaps my purpose now is to combine all these fragmented parts into one. To really redefine who I am and what I want to let go of.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18 – Asos Metallic Leather Shoes, Army Jacket, UK flag necklace
Oddly enough I feel my spirituality has been rejuvenated during my state of surrender. I may not still be able to answer all of my worries right now, but I definitely know that it is time for me to combine my spirituality and wear it on my sleeve. It is who I am and what I’ve come here to do. It might disrupt an industry and the world (perhaps that might be too big), but in reality, I think that’s how all the greats made their name and made it to be memorable; they all chose to be different; to be who they are.

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – NYFW FW18
I am going to trust, let go, and surrender to what is good for me. What is good for me will come into my life and bring me to new heights. It really is my time to live abundantly. I want to continue to speak my truth and “be real” with you guys and gals. It’s okay to feel sad and disappointed. I want to show you the side many people are afraid to talk about but shine a positive light on it.

 

Special Thank You to @UniqueSonia.M for the photos. Edited by Myself.

켄지진 #KenseyJean 2018. All rights reserved.
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High Priestess Tarot Inspired Photoshoot

By KenseyJean

Photos and Media are Copyrighted KenseyJean, please ask for permission (and properly credit and link back to my site/social media) before using.

Location: Times Square and Bryant Park, NY

Team:

The idea of doing a High Priestess Tarot Editorial Shoot came to me at the end of 2016. However, things only began to fall in place July of 2017. The funny thing with life is that things that are divinely meant to happen can’t be rushed. Between that gap of time I had acquired a gimbal, became friends with Silvia, and collected the money needed to bring this shoot into existence. All very important components.

During this time, I had met Shallen on Instagram and immediately pictured her as my muse for the shoot. A few months after, she messaged me about coming to New York. I really felt like it was divinely time to do the shoot! Even though it all came together, it took a lot of work and planning on my part. It was frustrating, but everything I needed for the shoot came together. I couldn’t have brought it to life and done it without my team. Truly!

My spin on the shoot was to make The High Priestess bright, beautiful, feminine, and powerful. She symbolizes “Intuition, higher powers, mystery, and the subconscious mind.” 🌙🌊. Even though there are elements of “darkness” associated with the tarot, to me it ultimately describes the energy each card plays. Just as how different energies affect us at different times, the tarot is the same way. It is a way to explain what is going on in our lives. And while lots of art on tarot spreads can be crafted and depicted in a “dark and evil” way, I choose to see it in a higher frequency – of love, light. I don’t see it as a replacement for God, but a way to receive guidance from those of the highest frequency whether that be from god, angels, our beloved pets, or even from ourselves (as we are pieces of god.)

My focus for the shoot was never focused on religion or religious elements, yet God is often connected to the cards; it was important that I stay true to that. I was inspired tremendously by The High Priestess as there are lots of beautiful, sometimes unusual, traits associated with “her.” Her divine intuition that guides her, her femininity and strength which often is not depicted together, her trust in god and the higher powers, and her calm but wise nature.

 

JEWELRY WEARABLE ART:

Pauletta Brooks Wearable Art

HIGH PRIESTESS EDITORIAL SHOTS:

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BTS:

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Keisena – New York Fashion Week NYFW FW18 – Kensey Jean

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Featured here is Keisena on instagram. Normally I don’t do Black and White images, but I felt the shadows, grain, and shaded look suit her overall feel.

Photography by 켄지진 #KenseyJean 2018. All rights reserved.
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Strength of Character – New York Fashion Week NYFW FW18 – Kensey Jean

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The outfit is beautiful, but there is something to say in those that can stand in their divinity and share it with the world. In an outfit that speaks#feminine, I think many men shy away in embracing that side of themselves. The dainty and delicate look takes a lot of courage. The#cupcake, the #pinks, the curled hair, #fauxfur, and the elegance just add to the strength of character this man has. Plus I really just love the#edwardian ? / #victorian ? / #Japanese butler? style regardless of what gender someone identifies with LOL!

Photography by 켄지진 #KenseyJean 2018. All rights reserved.
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TheWorkingBeauty – New York Fashion Week NYFW FW18 – Kensey Jean

Its always great running into people unexpectedly. I met#TheWorkingBeauty 1.5 years ago at a #FashionWeek networking event in 2016. A cool thing about her is that she is a #thrift expert and wardrobe stylist primarily working with thrifted #fashion for her clients. Her mission is to make everyone look and feel their best – and awaken a new found confidence in her clients fashion sense. I think for this season she actually challenged herself to thrift days before #NYFW and create a stunning new-to-her outfit(which she did amazingly!) She’s also quite smart 😂! You can find her on Instagram @theworkingbeauty.

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Photography by 켄지진 #KenseyJean 2018. All rights reserved.
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[ Soul on Fire ] Editorial Shoot

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Soul on Fire 2017 by
Photographer Kensey Jean
Model Tyler Hibbs
Behind the Scenes Silvia Zhang

TEAM

Photographer: Kensey JeanModel: Tyler Hibbs / Images Management Modeling Agency

Behind the Scenes / Assistant: Silvia IG1 | IG2

 

Editorial Film

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZAydvezqJ7E

December I shot an editorial shoot around setting the SOUL ON FIRE with it’s sole purpose of encourages others to do what they love with intensity. Originally, there was no specific theme. I planned the outfit(s) and based a shoot off of that as you can see in the BTS video. Shooting day was a bit of a rush as we were racing against the cold winter weather and for some reason I just have had issues with models not sticking through with shoots. It’s been kind of my down fall over the years. Luckily, I found Tyler(Images Management Modeling Agency) two days before the shoot and so with that I’m grateful. Things just fell together even though at the time none of the details made much sense of how they would come together. I also haven’t found much of a team yet to work with that shares the same vision as I do (or they just live elsewhere – or they just don’t care.) So I’ve taken up the roles of Photographer, Cinematographer (I wanted to film too LOL!), stylist (and funding the clothes), retoucher, and video editor. That’s a lot of roles and a lot of stress. I also had to plan a little variance in outfits with minimal efforts since it’s hard to change on a bridge and the weather is cold, so I basically layered it all. Thankfully I also had Silvia to shoot the BTS video and BTS photos for me – and assisting. She has been such a lifesaver on all of these shoots.
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Soul on Fire 2017 by
Photographer Kensey Jean
Model Tyler Hibbs
So hopefully I have enough of my work on the interwebs where I attract the right kinds of creatives for future shoots and in the right parts of the world, wherever I may be; people who sincerely believe in my vision. I think that is the other half of the problem, is finding people who actually – see it. Yet I’m still working on the balance of my own kind of style and the art I create is different to say the least. Different isn’t bad, it’s just different and not everyone likes – different.

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Soul on Fire 2017 by
Photographer Kensey Jean
Model Tyler Hibbs
Originally this shoot was more like vampiric looking in nature, but that’s not exactly how I roll and so I was a bit scared of how this editorial shoot would turn out. I was pleasantly surprised how it came out. I think for next time though, I would like to focus just on photography or just on cinematography. Focusing on both is like ripping yourself in half. I think that’s where I went wrong. Trying to share my vision with the world and finding a team who sees it is what I’m trying to achieve. And for them to see it, they need to see examples of what I’m looking for. So hopefully next time I actually have a cinematographer on board who can put all their energy into filming, see the vision, and leave me to focus fully on photography.

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Soul on Fire 2017 by
Photographer Kensey Jean
Model Tyler Hibbs
The weather was cold so the model was starting to freeze and i’d hate to be that photographer who pushes that boundary. So with the creative hurdles and the time constraints – It was difficult to say the least. I’m proud of the end result though. I do think I could have done better under more ideal conditions, but the purpose of the shoot was fulfilled.

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Soul on Fire 2017 by
Photographer Kensey Jean
Model Tyler Hibbs

Behind the Scenes Video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKnpLEK8QLo

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Soul on Fire 2017 by
Photographer Kensey Jean
Model Tyler Hibbs
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Soul on Fire 2017 by
Photographer Kensey Jean
Model Tyler Hibbs
 

BEHIND THE SCENES (COURTESY OF SILVIA)

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Kensey Jean shot by Silvia 2017 – Soul on Fire Editorial
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Kensey Jean shot by Silvia 2017 – Soul on Fire Editorial
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Kensey Jean shot by Silvia 2017 – Soul on Fire Editorial
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Kensey Jean shot by Silvia 2017 – Soul on Fire Editorial
 

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“Soul on Fire” Editorial Shoot 2017. Kensey Jean, Tyler, and Silvia
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Photographer Kensey Jean with model Tyler Hibbs
 

EQUIPMENT

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Soul on Fire Shoot – Equipment – Shot by Kensey Jean on Samsung Note 8

“Be fearless in the pursuit of what sets your soul on fire” Unknown
I’ll be releasing a post on “The State of Surrender” that is to be a continuation of this thought. Please feel free to check my website blog for other posts that might resonate!

 

 

As always I wish much love, happiness, and abundance for all.

Kensey

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Indisposable Concept – Disposable Camera Challenge

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Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com
Disposable Camera, Indisposable Concept
Reawakening your creative spark I think is very important. Taking part in the “Indisposable Concept” felt very rewarding for me. Not only did I get to take photos with one of those disposable cameras that were readily available as I grew up in the 1990s and 2000s, but I feel I contributed to something much greater than myself: something that will go down in history as the world becomes ever more so digital. This project promotes fun, not just perfectionism; which digital seems to promote with the endless selfies we all take. The whole world of photography has been revolutionized due to digital. It’s amazing when you come to the realization that photography hasn’t even been around that long. But with advances in technology, came ease of use and taking photos became “cheaper.” I say cheaper because it’s all a matter of perspective. It’s still expensive.
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NYC and Brook;lyn
Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – Indisposable Concept

THE PRICE

Disposable film cameras seem like the “pay as you go” type and digital feels like you must “pay upfront” and are required to spend several hundred or thousands of dollars for a decent camera. Photography is expensive no matter if you go disposable or if you go digital! Because digital is commonplace these days, I didn’t realize how many film processing “mom and pop” stores I had to call! Lots of them abandoned film and turned digital. And I’ve heard horror stories where drug stores don’t even give back your negatives anymore. Whut?? That becomes an issue in and of itself. So if you do this project, be aware that you may encounter the same drawbacks and have to call around and travel a bit – or send it out online to a film lab. In the general scheme of things, the Indisposable Conceptprovides a “budget friendly” option for anyone who wishes to take part and contribute – if you are willing to spare around $30 for the camera, develolping, and the digital scans. Prints are extra :).

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Manhattan Bridge
Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – Indisposable Concept

THE EXPERIENCE

Ironically, shooting on disposable cameras bring a very peaceful feeling. There is no need for extra accessories, and the IndisposableConcept creates a level playing field. Almost anyone can find a disposable camera, albeit hard maybe in our ever growing digital world. Nonetheless they are all basically identical with little variation (I never compared disposable cameras and quality), but I think you can all agree with the point i’m trying to make. In other words, shooting disposable feels more simple and it all comes down to creativity. People these days (or maybe its always been this way) often think you need a very expensive camera to take wonderful shots. That simply isn’t true. Yes, it helps tremendously as far as being able to push your creative limits, but it all comes down to the photographer and knowing how to work with what you’ve got. That is also why I was so keen on participating on this project. It reminds me that with simplicity, great things can be achieved; the photographer makes the shot.

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Indisposable Concept – Photographer Kensey Jean | With and Without Flash – afternoon.
 

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Indisposable Concept – Photographer Kensey Jean | Too dark in the shadows – the limits of lighting – afternoon.

END RESULT

Even though I am a professional photographer, I really wasn’t sure how great the photos would come out. It’s basically the first time shooting, considering it’s been more than a decade since I last shot on disposable. Frankly, my submission is somewhat terrible due to poor lighting. I had other set backs as well.. including my fashion editorial concept dissolving… leaving me to wander the streets in Brooklyn and asking strangers for their photo. It was fun and quite liberating knowing that there is a huge chance the photos will come out not as expected, possibly, craptastic, and just having to be okay with it LOL. At the end of the day, there is perfection in imperfection.

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“People Bowing”
Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – Indisposable Concept

GO AGAIN?

I will certainly be submitting again to the Indisposable Concept, next time with more awareness of the lighting limits. I had a great experience working with IC, they answered all of my questions prior to submission and they put a lot of time and love into showcasing all their submissions via their social channels and on their website. I love what they promote and I’ll be shooting my editorial shots next go round on a disposable camera. I want to show the world that photos are dependent on The Photographer’s vision and skill and not on the equipment used.

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IC infograph
 

OFFICIAL SUBMISSION ARTICLE with Q&A’s:

INDISPOSABLE CONCEPT SUBMISSION – Kensey J – Roll 1

Kensey J – Roll 1


Indisposable Concept gallery featuring Kensey J. Shot with a disposable camera. Age: N/A Where: NYC and Brooklyn. NY. USA When: February, 2018 Instagram: instagram.com/kenseyjean Website: kenseyjea…

Source: indisposableconcept.com/2018/02/19/kensey-j-roll-1/

GALLERY

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Roll 1 Submission
Photographer Kensey Jean – www.KenseyJean.com – Indisposable Concept
 

SHOUTOUTS

Hugeeee thanks to Silvia @sssss.910 @sillygraphy_ for helping me film and spending the day with me ;)!Indisposable Concept

I AM Kensey Jean – Get to know me!

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Hello! I am Kensey Jean. I owe my friend Chandra (@chandralm) a lot of props for getting me on here; it was one of those intuitive nudges I’m sure many of you have had; when you know something is to be a part of your destiny and that you should jump on it. So I did – twice- thanks to her. First for joining Steemit and second for writing my intro!

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I think sometimes it’s difficult to convey your soul story in a few simple words and sentences and expect people to see you as more than one thing. At least this seems to be where I’m at right now in my life. I’m a Photographer and Influencer, but I’m also many things contrary to the world wanting me to describe myself as only one thing I do. Am I a Photographer? Am I a Blogger? What one thing am I to the world? Can I say I’m a Prisim? I believe my soul runs much deeper than how I appear to others.

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My other friend mentioned to me the other day that I represent a prism. And I feel that deeply in my soul; hence the name, “Prism of Soul” that I’m currently going along with on my social media handles. I like fashion, photography, art, philosophy, Asian culture, and spirituality. I want to combine them all because that’s what makes me who I am. I am not just one thing. I am multidimensional; a soul who is speaking her truth. I’d much rather be valued by my character than by my achievements or just the things I do… so I won’t bore you with the things i’ve done; perhaps its the humbleness in me, but i’ll let it speak for itself in the posts I write and let you decide.

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So with that said, in the coming posts I’ll be expressing all things that resonate with my soul. I hope to get to know you all better and the Steemit community!

Electronically yours, (haha inspired by a youtube video – How to send an ‘E mail’ – Database – 1984)
Kens
http://kenseyjean.com/
@kenseyjean or @thekenseyjean

More props to @sillygraphy_ on instagram for some of the photos. Edited by myself always.